One of the first things my parents did when I was born was saddle me with the wrong name: Norris Gilmer Smith, Jr. I hated that name. The Smith part was good, but the rest… I never liked Norris because … Continue reading From Norris to winterSmith: A Long Quest for Identity
I can’t decide what to have them put on my tombstone. Advice? 1: He was a simple country boy. 2: The world ends not with a bang Not even a whimper But with ellipses… 3: He was a blind man … Continue reading Epitaph
My mother could be … difficult. Continue reading “Jane is gone”
Had a rough start to my day. Has anyone else had a similar experience on the RTD? Continue reading “Denver RTD: is this how you treat disabled passengers?”
My journey from dead-end Cluelessness to the pursuit of happiness… Continue reading “I’m a Loser, and I’m okay with it”
Remembering… Continue reading “Columbine: 4.20.19”
It’s been 20 years. I’m not sure I have anything new to say.
On April 20, 1999, at 11:19am MDT, the world changed. Continue reading “Columbine: it was 20 years ago today”
What was that thing Thomas Wolfe said…. Continue reading “I can’t go home again”
What do you do when you live in Denver, Colorado and you can’t think of a thing to photograph? Continue reading “ArtSunday: It’s time for Everything is a Photograph Day #eiapd”
I have launched myself headlong into the hope interval. As always, the cynic in me is now at war with the romantic. Continue reading “The hope interval: what is happiness?”
Job hunting is hard, and a lot harder once you hit 50. It’s important to keep your head up and stay focused on your value, but only hiring companies can actually do something about the very real problem of ageism. Continue reading “Happy freaking birthday, geezer: job hunting and ageism”
No matter how hard the world tries to make you look down, the view is better with your head up. Continue reading “Keep your head up”
We must be prepared to laugh with the universe at the banality of our own immolation.
Full moon. Snowfield, vast beneath the mountain: to understand the truth of people, study their contradictions.
This morning I posted this little koan (minus graphic) to Facebook:
I’m hardly the first to trot out a “there is no future” Zen meme. My grasp of Zen philosophy is minimal, at best, but it seems conceptions of the future are perhaps related to the ever-corrosive want, which is an impediment to the ability to live in the now – and the now is all that truly exists. Continue reading “There is no future: the ironic peace of learned hopelessness (#zenofdoc)”
Perhaps the iconic trickster Coyote is a symbol for the frustrations of the smart person in a stupid world. Continue reading “In defense of Coyote”
No cause for alarm… So, your new tenants have just moved into one of your rental properties in another state. Around 8pm on Thursday you get a brief email from one of the tenants – the man, whom by now … Continue reading I accidentally scared the hell out of my new landlord last night
I think a lot of us have this idea in our heads that if everyone in the world were more like us things would generally a lot better. Maybe we’d even have a utopia on our hands.
Mostly we’re delusional, of course. I have one old friend who’d trot out the old “if everybody were more like me” line periodically. In his mind the world would be some sort of Libertarian paradise. If you knew him, though, you had to figure glow-in-dark nuclear holocaust was more likely. Continue reading “If everybody were like me, the world would be…”
Sometimes that which does not kill us doesn’t make us stronger. Sometimes it breaks us. And bad mistakes I’ve made a few There’s this thing we’ve all learned to say: I have no regrets. And we mean it. I know … Continue reading Do you have regrets?
The best photo of a total eclipse you’ve ever seen doesn’t tell 1% of the story. The only way to communicate the reality is through digital processing technology. How very postmodern. August 21, 2017: Easterbrook Campground, SE Wyoming. This was … Continue reading Totality: Words fail. Pictures fail.
Facebook just reminded me: my dog, Ronan MacScottie, would have been 15 today. He died on October 19, 2014. It’s always a joy to remember the energy and attitude and laughter he brought to my life every day. Literally, every day, without exception, he made me laugh. As I have noted before, he was with me through some very dark times, and more days than I like to recall that was the only smile that crossed my face. On the other hand, the day he died was among the worst of my life, and it still guts me to think about … Continue reading Ronan would have turned 15 today
My friend thinks personality tests are hooey, and he’s often right. This one hit pretty close to home, though.
So a couple weeks ago back I put in online apps for a couple of jobs. A new job isn’t plan A, but I will soon know if my first two months at the current gig are reflective of what the rest of my time there will be like. There is great potential here, but if it’s going to always be the way it has been so far it’s not going to be sustainable. Period.
I got an email from one of the jobs with a survey they wanted me to take. The “Culture Index,” it’s called. You first get a screen full of adjectives – dozens of them – and they ask you to click the ones that describe you. Cool – I do so. Continue reading “Does the Culture Index accurately describe me? You make the call.”
It was five years ago today…
Saturday, June 2, 2012 – I had purchased my first camera the day before and ventured out to the Denver Chalk Art Festival. I’ve come a long way since then.